Monday, June 14, 2010

Adieu, adieu, to you and you and you.

I'm bad at goodbyes. Always have been, always will be.

I think that's why I've been procrastinating about moving over to the new blog address I established –while still pregnant! over four months ago! – here. That, plus I've been running around with a tiny human being who relies on me for his every waking (and sleeping) need. But it's getting silly now, because I need a spot where I can just dash off quick, maybe not fully formed or cogent thoughts about this new world I now call home. And it feels somehow wrong to do that here, where I spent so much time trying to trudge through the painful wilderness of infertility treatment, miscarriage and even the often-perilous 10 months of pregnancy. It feels like there's too much baggage, like I always owe infertility something when I write here, even if all I want to do is write about the bulls*&t diapers they sell at Costco (don't buy them) or how much you want to scream out loud when your baby bites down with his new teeth on your poor, unsuspecting nipple (which he did again today).

While I've procrastinated, I've missed writing about Mother's Day (which was, seriously? A day in my life that, for once, finally lived up to all the hype), my baby's baptism (another amazing day, in part because for so long I figured it would never happen even as I hoped it someday would) and the whole teething thing (which I definitely will cover in my new blog home). When we put rice cereal in my baby's four-month-old belly yesterday I resolved to get blogging again. So here I am.

And here I go, off to the Internet's equivalent of greener pastures or a deluxe apartment in the sky, or something like that. I'll be back from time to time, when I need to vent about something infertility related (because I'm learning that your baggage doesn't come out with the baby – though it would have been nice, for my abdomen's sake, if it did) or talk about the try for number two, if there is one (hello worms, how's that can?). And I may start yet another blog about my adventures in stay-at-home-parenting (Yes, that's right, the other thing I missed writing about: I quit my job!) and freelance writing – one for consumption by family and friends with a little less information and from which people cannot link back to overshared descriptions of the inner workings of my vagina. Meanwhile, I'd love it if you followed me over to Good Egg Hatched.

So much blogging to do! And so little time, but all I can do is begin. So I won't say goodbye (since, see above, I suck at it) – I'll say ta-ta for now. And thanks for everything.

PS - I've been trying to figure out what to do about this whole baby-identity-on-the-web thing. Let's face it, there are a lot of creepos out there. And I'm a pretty neurotic person, as we know. So I don't know if this is perfect but here's the plan. The baby will in my new blog home be known as H. I'll set up a password-protected post here with the long-awaited details (I know you've been holding your breath) like his name and a few photos. If we have a blogging/commenting relationship, leave me a comment here requesting the password and including your email address and I'll send it to you. Maybe I'll do more in the future, but it's taken me all these months to finally come to this and I'm afraid it's all I can stomach for the moment.

10 comments:

anofferingoflove said...

Oh good! When I saw the title to this post in my reader, I was worrie you were leaving blogland all together! A move is much better! :-)

I'd love the password, if you'll share with me. I totally get the worry, I still fret sometimes, even with password protection!

anofferingoflove said...

PS. I can't seem to comment on the new blog - are comments disabled? Or is the problem on my end???

Unknown said...

Awww, have I ever told you how much I love the Sound of Music, and how mother superior's solo Climb Every Mountain was especially meaningful to me during some of my own dark IF days. Also love the Jefferson's theme song too!

Kate said...

Would love the password too...

Anonymous said...

Phew, I also read the title and was worried you were leaving blogland altogether! I am so glad you are just moving. I will definitely follow you to the new blog.

I would love to read the password protected post with details! My email address is: birdsandsquirrels@gmail.com
Congratulations on quitting your job to stay home!

Ashley said...

So glad to read a post from you! I've been wondering how your little one was doing!! I would of course love to be included in your new blog;)

my email is apatin1@hotmail.com

Anonymous said...

Egg! Great to hear from you! I will add the new blog to my reader, and will try to remember to comment. You can email me at rescogitatae AT gmail if you are willing to share details of your bub!
Hugs!
T.

Amanda said...

I was scared that you were leaving too! My email is amandawithpcos@gmail.com if you want to send my the pw. I'd like to read!

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