One year ago on May 2, I walked into the clinic for an egg retrieval, not knowing whether it would lead to a baby or more heartache.
Today, the product of that cycle turned three months old. That cycle changed everything – changed me forever. I look at this baby and still can't wrap my brain around his existence, how all of the shots and scans, the tears, an egg retrieval and transfer, and hope against all odds added up to this real, live baby that smiles back at me.
But he's definitely real. I cleaned up his very real diaper blowout tonight.
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Searching for a Few Good Eggs
You want a baby. You're not any of the following: drug addict, teenager, criminal, deadbeat. It should be easy, right? Instead, you find yourself in an all-consuming hunt for a few good eggs (or sperm). Take some comfort here with familiar-sounding rants, sympathy and some bitter humor.
The Search
2/2/10 – Egg hatched. I am a mom.
11/09 – Put on bed rest at 28 weeks for suspected placental abruption.
8/09 – It's a boy!
5/09 – IVF #2: BFP!
3/09 – Operative hysteroscopy – third surgical procedure for one failed pregnancy.
2/09 – Office hysteroscopy reveals uterine scarring (Asherman's) from D&E. Yes, I am that one person in 100.
12/08 – US #2 (7w3d) - no hb. Try miso*prostol to avoid D&E. Decide this is ill-advised during D&E for incomplete m/c.
11/08 – IVF #1 – 18 eggs, 9 fert., 2 transferred. BFP! Betas doubling, US #1 (5w) - gestational sac, yolk sac.
9/08 – IUI #3 (2-3 gorgeous follicles). BFN. Time to move on.
8/08 - Begin new protocol: long (~3 wks.), low-dose stim.
7/08 - First consult with new (brilliant) RE.
6/08 - Cyst gone; start stims. Cycle nearly scrapped; trigger one sad-looking follicle - IUI #2. BFN.
4/08 - IUI #1 (lower dose, still "risky" 5 follicles). AF arrives. Benched for next month - residual follicular cyst.
2/08 - Injectable cycle #1 - cancelled (hyperstimulation - ~25 follicles = litter).
1/08 - Clomid 100 mg - cancelled (poor response/thin lining). I have to inject myself now??
12/07-1/08 - Clomid 100 mg. Ovulate, possibly 1st ever. Try au natural. AF arrives, laughing.
11/07 - Clomid 50 mg. Big fat nothing.
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5 comments:
Very real. Maybe a little smelly, but really real!
It is posts like this one that help me to continue through this shitty infertility journey. Thanks for continuing to tell us your story - I still check in all the time and love reading your posts from "the other side".
I can't believe it's been a YEAR!!! It really flew by...before you know it they will be three years old!!o
Oh yeah! My products of my egg retrieval a year and a half ago are having a lovely stomach bug of some kind. I say of some kind as there is no fever but the messy diapers and lack of keeping down bottles is keeping our washing machine in business.
Congratulations on your cute little achievement.
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