Sunday, May 02, 2010

Fast Forward

One year ago on May 2, I walked into the clinic for an egg retrieval, not knowing whether it would lead to a baby or more heartache.

Today, the product of that cycle turned three months old. That cycle changed everything – changed me forever. I look at this baby and still can't wrap my brain around his existence, how all of the shots and scans, the tears, an egg retrieval and transfer, and hope against all odds added up to this real, live baby that smiles back at me.

But he's definitely real. I cleaned up his very real diaper blowout tonight.

5 comments:

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Jamie said...

Very real. Maybe a little smelly, but really real!

Lisa said...

It is posts like this one that help me to continue through this shitty infertility journey. Thanks for continuing to tell us your story - I still check in all the time and love reading your posts from "the other side".

Ashley said...

I can't believe it's been a YEAR!!! It really flew by...before you know it they will be three years old!!o

Heather said...

Oh yeah! My products of my egg retrieval a year and a half ago are having a lovely stomach bug of some kind. I say of some kind as there is no fever but the messy diapers and lack of keeping down bottles is keeping our washing machine in business.

Congratulations on your cute little achievement.